Selamat Hari Kebangsaan

kepada anak-anak Malaysia yang berada di serata dunia, di Malaysia dan ada yang berada di planet-planet entah yang mana.

Baik. BM saya telahpun merosot ke pangkat yang amat memalukan. Namun, saya akan berusaha! Saya akan bersungguh-sungguh menghasilkan belog (perkataan baru diterjemah dari Bahasa Inggeris - blog) yang bermutu. Haha.

Jika anda mengunjungi belog orang lain yang amat terkenal, mereka juga berpusu-pusu menulis dalam BM, sempena Hari Kebangsaan lah, apa lagi. Saya pula, budak kecik yang tidak berinfluansi (wth, got such word or not??) juga ikut aje. Tulis juga belog saya dalam BM.

(Shucks. I sound awful.)

OKei. Apakah topik yang sesuai dibincangkan hari ini? Biar saya menceritakan sedikit pasal hari yang amat mulia ini. Selepas bangun dari tidur, terus saya online dan cuba mengulangkaji pathologi, subjek yang amat membencikan sebab lecturer-lecturer sekalian sedikit senget kat kepala sana. Embolism dibandingkan kepada kuih lapis, liver (help!) yang berdarah diberi nama sebagai "nutmeg liver" dan banyak lagi. Kesemua organ-organ yang telah cacat, yang sudah mengeluarkan cecair warna hijau dan yang telah jadi hitam (infarction lah tu) dibandingkan dengan pelbagai makanan. Eeeee. Geli betul.

Ah. tak habis lagi. Banyak yang aku nak ceritakan. Anda semua harus ingat bahawa membelog dalam BM bukannya mudah. Aku sudah mengabaikan BM untuk 4 tahun!! Aku boleh membaca lah, faham lah, bertutur lah, tapi tulis rencana ataupun satu ayat yang betul dari segi tatabahasa...fail lah.

Penat lah. Saya akan berhenti sekarang. Sedikit lapar juga. Hmm. Buat sedikit Milo untuk temani aku semasa ulangkaji lah. 3 more chapters to go.

Aku anak Malaysia!

I remember having this conversation with my dearest, where we discussed about the meaning of this word "patriotism" (ay, we're an intellectual couple okay). And our discussion went on about what is considered as patriotic. To me, wanting to go home after graduation to serve my country is considered patriotic. To him, well, it's just another word...propaganda-ish word. Then I insulted his education background, where being submerged in pure Chinese education (that is probably anti-Malay/Malaysia) is making him less Malaysian. Of course, he refuted by saying being patriotic doesn't mean having to do obvious things.

Now, why am I talking about this? Hari Kebangasaan is just around the corner. And as I clicked here and there, surfing blogs and reading the national paper online, I am encouraged. Looks like the dream to achieve anak-anak Malaysia is coming true. There are many of intelligent Malaysians overseas, yearning to be part of the national celebration, is coming up with wonderful ideas to celebrate.

Go to Impianku.org to read more.

I am proud to be Malaysian, and I like telling people that I come from Malaysia. I am proud of my country (despite the screwed up politicians with half-baked minds) and it is my HOME.

Looks like the nilai-nilai Pendidkan Moral they tried to instill in us is working very well indeed.

And come this 31st Aug, I'm going to blog in Bahasa Melayu, bahasa kebangsaan kita. Hopefully I've not gone too rusty by then. Heh. And hopefully I have time to write too, cos I have a test the next day. (This is the Singaporean in me speaking. UGH. Out you go Sing-ga-por-lang)

OMG

I just finished one page out of my 2-page lab report. And I did some blog surfing. And I checked on my horoscope and found something really freaky.

Positive Traits in Love
Loyal, supportive, nurturing, compassionate, caring, dedication, faithfulness of emotions, tenderness, pampering, adoration.

Negative traits
Possessiveness, jealousy, moodiness, volatility, control issues, dependency issues, depression.

What Cancer likes
Feeling appreciated, Sincerity, Tradition, Stability, Routine, Loyalty, Commitment, Laughing, Feeling supported.

What Cancer Dislikes
Erraticness, Sudden unexpected changes, Insincerity, Being ignored, Dishonesty, Not knowing how you feel, Being uncomfortable.

From here.

Uhm. There's more in the link. Just click it lah.

I think I should go to sleep now. Maybe I shall skip the boring comm service thingy tomorrow morning. Hmmm.

Ah feeeeeel good. Nananananana...

I just went for TWO hours' worth of fitness class. Washboard abs, here I come! Whee.

Schoolwork is starting to pile up now. I feel as if I'm in the middle of the semester already (even though it's only the 3rd week!). There will be a Pathology test next week and Pharmacology test the following week and a Medicinal Chemistry test the week after that. Yay. I love tests.

@#$%^&*

I am in an extremely pissy mood now. I usually love a good rainy weather, but not today.

Already it's bad enough having the stupid printing machine eat up $2.00 from my card without printing anything. Already it's bad enough not having any notes and thus screwing up my study plans. Already it's bad enough not getting enough quality time and yet some idiotic dingbat still tries to test the fragility of it all.

I am so very pissed. I want to go to sleep.

I hate cramps. And I hate being a woman.

What Am I To Do?

My favourite blogger posted a pretty melancholic post tonight. And I guess I identify with his dilemma totally. Although the situation is slightly different, but the basic circumstance is similar. I just hope that things will turn out well for him lah.

As for me, I had a pretty OK day. I am very happy to see my ex-JC classmates again. Seeing them is always a joy. But it's quite sad that a few more is flying overseas. I'm going to miss them...

I'm feeling quite disappointed now. I'm not going to complain or anything, but I just feel like whatever I said did not seem to have any impact. And my wishes just cannot override some things. Am I being selfish?

Sorry for being cryptic. I just don't want the details to be known.

I have not cried for a long time. And today, I cannot hold it back anymore.

Grar.

I'm so tired. Dunno why. And I feel fat again. Had a very fattening and yet healthy lunch (chicken caesar's salad and a chocolate cake with vanilla ice cream). While eating, I was coveting after other people's lasagne, carbonara pasta etc. Where did my enormous appetite come from!?

And I'm supposed to attend a kickboxing lesson just now to kick away last night's supper (a basket of potato wedges and milo ice) and this afternoon's salad with extra generous helping of cheese. But the instructor stood us up (@#@#$!) and I went for dinner. I had veryfattening fries, butter-soaked herb fish and cholesterol laden egg. I'm DOOMED.

I'm getting fat I'm getting fat!!! Arghhhhhhhhh. No more svelte 43kg me!!!! Argh.

Ether-a-go-go

Now. When your professor asks you to find out the actual word for the acronym, hERG, while sniggering, you should know that it's not something long and convoluted and confusing as human Endocardial Reforming Gene (no such thing in real life). Neither does it mean human Enzyme Reversing Growth (no such thing either).

It actually stands for human Ether-a-go-go Related Gene.

Now what is ether-a-go-go? An excerpt from some scientific paper published in Nature.

The ether-a-go-go (eag) gene encodes a polypeptide that shares sequence similarities with several different ionic channel proteins, including voltage-gated potassium channels, an inward rectifier as well as cyclic-nucleotide-gated channels.

The hERG gene is related to the Ether-a-go-go gene found in the Drosophila fly. When flies with this gene are anaesthetised with ether, their legs start to shake. (Wikipedia)

I cried...

...when I read this beautiful poem.

Tonight I Can Write
by Pablo Neruda, translated by W.S. Merwin

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example, 'The night is starry
and the stars are blue and shiver in the distance.'

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is starry and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight tries to find her as though to bring her closer.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another's. She will be another's. As she was before my kisses.
Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.

'Nuff said



Thanks, gettyimages.

Amish

I spent my weekend reading up stuff about Amish (pronounced as Ah-mish)culture. Now, before you go "Huh, what??", let me introduce this interesting group of people to you.

When I was in the US last winter, WL very nicely pointed out to me these Amish (or commonly confused as Mennonites) people. And we were fortunate to bump into a couple of them shopping (?) in the Salvation Army thrift shop. Also, as we were on our way from Grantham to Philly, he pointed out a few of their huge farmhouses. He gave me a very brief description about them - they don't use electricity. That managed to intrigue me for a while, until lately, I managed to remember about their existence while waiting for that someone *glare* to come back.

Just a very basic informed introduction. Amish people are actually Christians of the Anabaptist denomination. Their roots can be traced back to Europe. But during the time of persecution and struggle, they moved to US and settled mainly in Pennslyvania and Ohio. As of now, there are as many as 130 000 Amish people in US and Canada.

They believe in the Word of God, recognising His gift of His Son to them. Hence, in gratitude to his mercy, they devote their life in accordance to his principles and teachings, advocating a life that is governed by love, humility, compassion and obedience. Also, they believe that they are "in the world, but not of the world" and that they are "not to be yoked with unbelievers", they practice isolation from the world. This explains their rejection of electricity and automobiles, as they believe that these things will expose them to undesirable virtues such as power (as in authority), competition and pride.

In their practice, they wear simple clothings with no patterns or designs (as these may encourage vanity) and for the ladies, they brush their hair back in a neat little bun covered with a black (for singles) or white (for married ladies) cap.

There are many other peculiar (to us) customs that these Amish people practice, but these details are too much to go into.

One thing I want to highlight is the way their close-knit society functions. The families are very close to one another, assisting when the other has an event (wedding/funeral) or a disaster(fire). This sounds very much like the gotong-royong we still have in the kampungs. Basically, I would say that their individual life revolves around their society, as opposed to the modern societies now. Their society is involved in every stage of their life as they grow up to be a part of the group. Individualism is frowned upon but group work is praised.

I think this community exmplifies perfectly the communal living that is stated in the Bible. Due to their way of living, the crime rate is almost nil, divorce is almost unheard of and there is no such thing as a nursing home. I am really impressed with the way the families, church and school link up to guide the growth of each young Amish.

OK. I don't think I sound convincing enough in this post. But really, you should try to google for "Amish" and read about their culture and practice. They may sound very weird to be rejecting so many of the modern technologies and conveniences, but when you understand the underlying reason behind their actions, it may be reasonable after all. I am drawn to the way their community functions. I am impressed with the freedom they allow their youth of 16 years to have a taste of the world before deciding whether they want to continue with the Amish lifestyle speaks much about the community. Their value system is in no way oppressive although it may sound so to us. Their ability to uphold their beliefs and practice in this increasingly "sinful" and progressive age is amazing.

Just two words. I'm amazed.

NEW TEMPLATE!

Hello! As you can see, I have finally put up the new template after procrastinating for ages. The layout is still the same, i.e. posts on the left and links on the right margin, but the overall theme is changed. I would not say it is a drastic change, but it looks much better. I'm so in love with green now. Even my desktop has this greenish background with a blade of grass dripping a drop of dew.

Anyway, I toiled through about 2 hours figuring out CSS and modified some parts of the html for this template. Also, I managed to learn how to use Photoshop (with the help of Adobe Illustrator) while trying to create the banner on the top. Very simple modifying and design. I do have a problem though. Can't seem to figure out what's wrong with the "About" section on the top right hand corner. Could any kind soul look through my coding and perhaps help me solve it? But do be warned, my coding is extremely messy plus there might be lots and lots of redundant tags all over the place. Heh. Amateur trying to be look pro mah. :P

Well, I will do some minor changes just to spruce up the template as I go on. Right now I need to wrestle with coding proper tables. I need to have some lines in the blog! It's a little too bare!

So, for old times' sake, here's a photo of my previous template. :)




And this is my desktop.

New toy!

I have just downloaded the newest version of Messenger and it looks fabulous. The available functions are worth drooling over too. :)

Here it is, this is how it looks like:

SHUCKS

I remember vaguely that I'm supposed to get away from this computer once I typed up that post. But well, here I am again. Cos I just popped over someone's (sorry I couldn't give you credit here) blog and found this little quiz.

10 random things about me
1. I like to organise things. As in physical things. Something like Bree in DH.
2. The good old wooden pencils are so much better than the "tick-tick" (aka mechanical) ones.
3. I name all my soft toys and promptly forgot them afterwards.
4. My Malay teacher gave me a clock for getting a prize in some competition.
5. I talk to myself a lot.
6. I enjoy natural scenery (aka trees, huge fields, waterfalls, beaches etc)
7. I used to love ballet a lot when I was still doing it. I still do now even though I have stopped for many years.
8. I wonder how life would be different if I never took the step to apply for the scholarship.
9. I like fluffy terry towels.
10. I can't stand smelly toilets.

9 ways to win my heart
1. Be artistic.
2. Well-roundedness is key. NOT the in the physical sense, but rather, being smart and sporty and cultured.
3. Tell me that you love me at odd moments just to suprise me.
4. Make me small but meaningful gifts for my birthday.
5. Buy me an iPod Mini. Heh heh. I think the green is cool.
6. Bake me chocolate cake topped with hot fudge and served with a huge scoop of vanilla ice cream.
7. Loves meeting my parents and relatives.
8. Save money just to fly back to be with me.
9. Buy me a dog.

8 things I want to do before I die
1. Bungee jump. Thinking about it gives me jitters, but I think I still want to do it once I gather enough courage (need YEARS to gather lah).
2. Scuba dive!
3. Live in different countries around the world for a good 5 years before moving elsewhere again.
4. I want to be with The Boyfriend for a period longer than 2 months at one go.
5. Get married and have manymany kids.
6. Open a bookshop.
7. Buy my parents a better retirement home.
8. Win a Outstanding Pharmacist of the Year award or something to that effect.

7 ways to annoy me
1. Kiasu-ism.
2. Playing really loud music on repetitive mode.
3. Wet toilets.
4. Wet shoes and socks. I get lots of those in JC days.
5. Never reply my emails.
6. Buses that take more than 15 minutes to arrive.
7. Put me in a small room or small space with many people.

6 things I believe in
1. Love.
2. God.
3. Science.
4. Myself.
5. Peace.
6. Moisturiser and friends (they must work lah!)

5 things I'm afraid of
1. Lizards. Not really afraid lah. Just disgusted. Why are they so primitive and slimy. Ugh.
2. Fear.
3. Not being able to have healthy kids. *touchwood*
4. Failing myself.
5. Finding out that using body cleansing stuff (shower gel, face wash, shampoo) are actually hazardous due to accumulation for manymany years.

4 of my favourite items in my room
1. My computer. MAC!!!!
2. My bed. Woohoo~
3. The photo of me and The Boyfriend.
4. Soft toys.

3 things I do everyday
1. Brush teeth
2. Eat
Sleep

2 things I want to do right now
1. Finish up the damn reading.
2. Get over and done with this questionnaire!

1 person I'd like to see right now
The Boyfriend lah. Who else.

Long rambling ahead

The first week of school is coming to an end. Albeit a little too slow for my taste, I'm enjoying every free moment I have. Like, I just spent a few hours after dinner going online, chatting with friends and family and just surfing around. But then again, maybe it's because I have already relinquished the post and now I have nothing to do. And schoolwork is still in its infancy.

Anyway, I am starting to have this bad habit of needing to have something sweet (cakes, ice cream, juice etc) after dinner. As my dinner is always the heaviest in the day, it is not gonna do any good cos I'm not going to shave off all the calories while I sleep! Die lah. Here I come to flabby arms and tummy. :( But The Boyfriend will still love me right? Teehee.

So. I have decided to take up some fitness classes organised by some club in this uni. But I missed the registration by just a bit! Argh. The class I wanted is totally full. Buggarh. Then along came another option, where we pay a flat fee and enjoy a whole myriad (actually 4 types of fitness classes only lah) of limitless fitness classes throughout the month! The deal sounds damn good. Plus, it's a good deal attending different types of fitness classes twice a week on top of school work and the choir. But the problem is, assuming I attend at least 8 classes (I have calculated. Trying to make my money's worth mah!), it's still going to cost more than SGD10 per class. So I need ultra will to move myself to go for the classes as often as I can. Just to make my money's worth.

Btw, I have set some kind of budget for myself. Which means from today onwards, no unnecessary entertainments (movies, pool, clubbing etc) and less eating out at expensive places (sushi bars, cafes etc). My only entertainment shall be free books from the library and tasty *grimace* canteen food. I mean, it can't be that bad right, so many stalls in one canteen and this campus has like 5 or 6 canteens. I can try every store and every single dish they have on their menu! Hur hur. I sound pathetic lahhhhh.

Now why am I doing this? Because I am planning to save up for the future. I want to go for exchange lah. If not an exchange, I want to go to US again to attend The Boyfriend's convocation. Actually not really lah. It's more of going to US because it's such a fun place to be in. Whee.

OK. Enough of rambling online. I need to do some reading on my Sociology module (not as interesting as I thought it would be even though I was very interested in it when I was in JC). And YES. I got my module. Need to check how much I spent on it. Hmmm. Oh. It's 750 points. Wah. Not too bad. :)

Oh btw, I have already done up the design for my new template. I just haven't gone down to tweaking the html yet. Wait lah. Maybe this weekend you might see something FRESH.

I am such a PIG! *oink*

I just had a slice of papaya, a full plate of rice with curry chicken without the chicken (all the chicken sold out lah. What to doooo), some vegetables and pork. Immediately after clearing my plate, I went to the snack shop auntie and ordered TWO pieces of kaya toast and impatiently stuffed everything in.

I am so going to get fat. Bah.

Unexpected calmness

Remember I mentioned something about a tutorial clashing with my overall timetable? I went for the lecture this morning (at 10am) and found that it is not possible to change the timing due to higher forces (aka room bookings/availability or lecturer's timetable). So I have to drop that module. The introduction was quite interesting really. A little too short - we left the LT at 10.20am. -_-" But I am thankful for the extra time for brunch/lunch and to look for another module to bid for.

*cross my fingers*

I hope this will work out so that I can attend the first lecture tomorrow. But that will mean the whole of my Thursday is packed from 8.30am all the way to 4.00pm. Whee~ Not even a break in between for lunch. Looks like I have to put my Ziploc bags to good use.

OK. I shall go slack around a bit now. And maybe think of what to have for lunch. Hmm.

Btw, I think I look very cute today! *skips around in ultra bimbotic manner* Because I'm wearing a cute miniskirt *squeal* and a mini polo top *squeal some more* !! Oh gosh.

Anyway, that's all folks.

Taking a break

It was a nice break from school today (even though school was just a mere 4 hours for me yesterday) and I didn't do much except chatting on MSN and doing various chores. I just feel that time is moving extremely slowly at this point in time. It's nice to enjoy every moment, but knowing that once the homeworks/assignments/lab reports start to come, time will be barely there for me.

To think that I am so happy for this day of rest is quite expected. Yesterday I was swimming in the sea of faces, nudging and dodging from one palce to another. It tires me out to see so many people. I have forgotten how many people there are when lectures/tutorials are in full swing. I kinda miss the quiet, serene campus.

***

I received the following excerpt via email from his mom.

When Things Are Beyond your control, here's something that you must NOT DO so as to avoid misery in your life:

You must not decide how you think the world SHOULD be.
You must not make rules for how everyone SHOULD behave.

Then, when the world doesn't obey your rules, you get angry! That's what miserable people do!

On the other hand, let's say you expect that:

Friends SHOULD return favours.
People SHOULD appreciate you.
Planes SHOULD arrive on time.
Everyone SHOULD be honest.
Your husband or best friend SHOULD remember your birthday.

These expectations may sound reasonable. But often, these things won't
happen! So you end up frustrated and disappointed.

There's a better strategy. Demand less, and instead, have preferences!

For things that are beyond your control, tell yourself:

"I WOULD PREFER "A", BUT IF "B" HAPPENS, IT'S OK TOO!"

This is really a change in mindset. It is a shift in attitude, and it gives you more peace of mind ...

You prefer that people are polite ... but when they are rude, it doesn't ruin your day. You prefer sunshine ..... but if it rains, it is ok too!

To become happier, we either need to

a) Change the world, or
b) Change our thinking.

It is easier to change our Thinking!

IN A NUTSHELL

It is not the problem that is the issue, but rather it is your attitude attending to the problem that is the problem.

It's not what happens to you that determine your happiness. It's how you think about what happens to you!

Well, of course I don't agree with everything the email says. The underlying philosophy seemed a little flawed and some assumptions are made. I think they forgot about a few things as well. Like, sometimes it is good to have high expectations so that things can be done. Oh well, I guess this must be read with a pinch of salt as not everything appears as what it is portrayed to be.

I believe that religion does the same thing. They seek to change your thinking and attitude towards how we react and response. And in return, we feel better and less easily angered. So, it boils down to one thing. We gotta choose how we want to react.

First Day of School

It went past in a daze. I think we went through some pretty important topics, especially Pharmacology. I need to do a little revising on thyroid hormone and the gland.

I am seriously considering turning into a hermit. But I know I will be bored to death just by the end of the day. I need to talk to people! And MSN doesn't count cos I don't get to hear their voice and see their face. Haiyah. What am I talking about.

It's national day in tinylittleisland tomorrow. And it's also my friend's birthday! Happy 21st Birthday to you YM!! So special to share a birthday with a country eh. I was thinking, if my future husband shares the same birthday as me, it would be quite interesting. If not my husband, then my kid lah. But then again, having to bear all the pain during childbirth on MY birthday doesn't sound too pleasant. But it's probably the best present me and my husband could give to ourselves. :)

I have a few things planned for tomorrow. And I just can't wait to sleep in. Haha. Cheap thrill lah!

Aiyah. School starting tomorrow leh

My mom has just arrived in KL safely. And while she's on the bus, I was busy traipsing around town, running a few errands. I didn't manage to get much of them done because I went around doing them wrongly! I thought there was this machine that you could do internet banking on. And I remembered vaguely that I used to change my address using one of those machines. But looks like they have phased out that machine. Of course by now you'd be wondering why don't I just do internet banking right in the comforts of my room? Well, I did. But I had to go down personally to the bank or I had to submit some form to them. So since I don't have afternoon classes tomorrow, I shall continue doing my errands then.

Aiks. I just remembered that I did some laundry a while ago. Now I just need to recall how long ago was that "a while".

Anyway, what I was going to say. Yes, I have been going around doing some changes to several things. Mainly updating address and personal information stuff (no, not changing my marital status from single to married yet!). I'll need to email some people about my new address soon. Sigh. I wish I could just stop moving around every year. It's sickening and tiring and packing is such a pain. Ugh.

Oh well. School starts tomorrow (I think I have an ingrown nail in my left toe. Ouch...) and I'm not exactly excited yet. Somewhere deep within the deep recesses of my mind I am worried. I'm worried that I might have forgotten to do something big. And now I have no idea what that is. Stop worrying!!!

And I just found out that the module I just bidded on clashes with the rest of my timetable. Way to go wind. I'm brilliant for not checking the tutorial slots. Baaah. Oh. And did I mention that there's going to be only TWELVE students in the class? Guess I'll sort out the tutorial slots later lah. It's probably easier to talk to the prof in a small class. Too small methinks. Smaller than a JC class. *shudder*

OK. I should go check on my laundry now. Oh btw, did I mention that doing laundry is FREE FREE FREE? Wheeeee~ Now I can wash my bed sheets and towel everyday! Ho ho ho.

Uhhhhh

I just feel very much like blogging even though I don't really have anything in mind to blog about. I even felt compelled to type in one-sentence paragraphs but somehow I keep seeing Pereira's face. She must have done an awfully good job in making me write properly (to a certain extent). Hah.

Anyway, I stubbed my left toe and sprained my left middle finger. TLY claimed that I must have "over-used" my middle finger for some noble purpose.

Hello. I think I'm just craving for attention lah. Some lovin' please. It's difficult to have a weak middle finger cos I cannot wash my hair properly (cos need the strength to massage the scalp mah!) and I can't exactly put a lot of pressure while typing and there's so many other things I can't do properly. Sigh.

I shall declare that I am sick of shopping. Ever since mom came down to tinylittleisland with me on Friday, she's in the crazy-shopper mode. She's been hopping into every shop she sees in sight and trying to buy stuff. Her extreme enthusiasm for shopping scares me somewhat. And there I was, trying to ask her to buy less things etc etc.

Dunno lah. I'm confused right now.

Suddenly I just have so many things in my mind. And suddenly there's so many things to do. Argh. Starting to feel the stress building up. This place is damn screwed up man. Why don't I ever feel like this when I'm at home and facing a big crisis? Minor things just drive me insane now. Why ah.

Oh. There's a weird bird cawing away.

Did I mentioned I love my new room? *beam*

Dreams

No. I'm not talking about the things you have in your head while you sleep. I'm actually talking about dreams, those things that you put your heart and soul into, and you want to do them.

And you know that when your dream DO come true, you are probably going to be the most contented person on earth.

Everyone has a dream. My mom has a dream to travel the world. And her dream did not die even though she had to scrimp and save for house lah, car lah, children lah etc lah. She knew that her dream will come true one day and that is the hope that kept her going.

I have a dream too. And I shall not say it loud so that I won't jinx it.

Do you have a dream?

***

In just a few hours' time I'll be on the bus again, traversing the length of the peninsula back to the rat race. I have had the most fulfilling holidays ever. Although I did not accomplish anything in particular (the pharmacology textbook was never touched! Die...), I was happy just spending time at home, watching drama serials after drama serials and napping my afternoons away. I am happy to have met up with friends. And I am happy with the friendships I have rekindled.

You know what, the thing that makes me happiest is the simplest thing of all -- love.

[Edit: I'm sorry Nadia for not calling you today, even though I said I would. I was too busy packing and doing last minute stuff. Sigh. See you in tinylittleisland.]

I'm gonna rantrantrant

1. Bidding for modules is supposed to end today. But guess what, at the thirteenth (I know there's no such expression) hour, the server decides to die. How lar. I only bidded for French with 800+ points. And the maximum I see someone bid is 1200+ at 10am yesterday. I don't even know how much the points have soared. And I have to fight with godknowshowmany people for only 6 places. Boohoohoo.

2. I am still halfway through my report! I have left the juicy bits to be written this morning before I log online and start chatting with my dearest and bid for my modules and going out. (I know I make no sense. Bah) Argh. Everything is topsy turvy now. I have not showered. I have not touched my report. And I am trying to bid for my module. And *suprise* the server is working. It takes an average of a minute to load a page. *mumble*

3. What else ah. Oh yes. HAZE. So hazy arh. My throat is itchy.

4. And I have not brushed my teeth yet. Yuck.

5. The damn page is still loading. Quickquick. I need to see the points before they close bid at 1pm!! Argh.

OK. End of senseless post. Wish me luck.

Back to the future

I feel like I'm 13 years old all over again. You know that time when all the girls and boys go really crazy over some actor/actresses.

I am crazy over Yamada Takuyaki. He is soooooooo kawaii neeeeeeee. Haha.

Went online to search for his nice pictures, but unfortunately most sites are in Japanese (which I can't read very well) or Chinese (which I also can't read very well). He's like so cute and adorable and he has the nicest hair and his eyes are so pretty! I like! And the characters he played (so far I've only watched sekai and H2) are those quiet sort with a lot of character. *sighhhhhhhh* If only he's mine. *sighhhhhh*

Ok. End of teenage swooning.

On totally different things, microwaved chocolate cake with a little bit of melted fudge on it is lovely. Add a large scoop of vanilla ice cream and I'm in heaven. Wooh. And that is going to be my breakfast today. Yum.

And on another totally different thing, it satisfies me more to make you happy than anything else. *grin*