Holiday Assignment

Hello again. I have an assignment to do. Ie, write a 300-word blog. Normally it'll be a piece of cake, but well, this time I lack readings as well as a thesis statement. AND. There's NO question in the first place!

So here's the question i've decided to come up with. What have I done today that is worth blogging about?
Thesis statement: Nothing.
Supporting evidence:
1. Went for a meeting in the morning of which the details I cannot divulge here.
2. Had a nap with no dreams.
Conclusion: There is nothing to be blogged about.

Anyway, on a lighter note, la~~~, *ahem*, took the shuttle bus this morning with a super blur driver. First, he went the wrong direction. Then he missed the turning after a roundabout thus bringing us on a roundabout ride. I wonder what other blunders he went through after I alighted. Heehee.

I'm craving for nice cold sushi. And I'm starting to miss home. Actually I miss the carefree-ness. And the slack-ness. I'm supposed to be having a holiday! GOODNESS. Shouldn't have agreed to take up the post eh. But mummy says this will be a good character development opportunity for me, which I agree to wholly. And theperson over in Cornell would be mighty pissed at me for letting go of this opportunity. (Btw, he's the one that set this assignment. :( Always bully me even though he's not around!)

Anyway, am not here to gripe about my life lah. Am pretty contented now with theperson a huge ocean away or just 3 continents away from me loving me loads and loads and loads. And because I have such a great team of comm members to work with!

Miss you dear!

Holiday-ing

X just came back from holiday.
But Y has been stuck at home with the chickens to tend and the watering of vegetables.
And Y feels kinda lonely throughout.
But X was nice.
X asked Y about his day.
Y told X about his long and tiring day.
And X just disappeared.
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You know, something I mentioned before in my blog, that people I hang out with are mainly made up of people put together due to circumstance. It is like forcing pieces of puzzle that just cannot fit perfectly to fit nicely. And of course, once in a while an odd piece will pop out. And somehow I'm always the odd piece. Heh. Anyway, I don't think it matters lah. i don't care for them, they also don't care for me. This is like the no-strings-attached kinda of "friendship". Very easy and clean. Yupyup.

Oh, and did I mention that I'm starting to get very good at hiding my moods? *grin*

Inequalities!

You know that feeling, the one where you put in 200% effort but what you get back is only a mere 10%. This is how I feel right now. And no, it has nothing to do with the choir. This morning's meeting went on well and there were some solid decisions made. I am relieved with that. The rest couldn't come to any conclusion partly because of my fault, for not bugging theboss for more information. Anyway, one lesson learnt today.

Hmm. I digressed. Yes. 200%=10% ?? Somehow it always happen in relationships doesn't it? It's like spending hours after hours persuading and spending some money getting ice blended coffee for the person and at the end of the 4 hours, you just get a nod. Or worse, a shaking of the head. I'm getting frustrated. I know every person has their problems and concerns, but ARRRRRGGGGGH. At least I tried! I'm too frustrated to continue. And it hurts even more if it is someone you care for very much.

I shall not continue. There's no point thinking through the process again and get myself worked up even more. I wish I could just give up. But I couldn't because I know I will regret it. And because I'm stubborn.

I can't even talk to you now!

Great Expectations

Well, HELLO! Have not blogged for quite a bit. Think I need to increase my frequency if possible. Anyway, I've gotta be off in half an hour's time. Got meeting with exco ah...

The thingy in Sentosa was fun, according to the feedback I got. But I think it was plain plain and lousy, perhaps. Hmm. Maybe I need to lower my expectations a little. Been giving myself loads of pressure lately. That's cos I want to prove to myself that I can do it excellent-ly! Why is it so hard to explain this to you? My predecessor left the choir with me at its peak and what can I do except to maintain the standard of cohesiveness (among the members) and the choral standard at the very least. I want to try to scale new heights. I wonder whether it is possible.

SIGH.

Sometimes I wish time would go by a little faster so that I can be rid of this hellhole week. But I want to relish the experience. But at the same time, I needed a good rest. My mind's woozy and there's just simply so many decisions to make! Argh.

Sometimes it's hard for me to articulate my feelings and thoughts, but lately I have been experiencing intense emotions. Emotions that leave me crying through the night and emotions that totally paralyse me through the day. And I don't tell you these because you have so many other things to be concerned over. I can't wait for Year 2 to be over. I'm already dreading the thought of having to see the juniors, going for tons of practices etc etc. There is no longer joy in choir! And this is what I dread the most.

Nice song with lovely lyrics

Have You Ever by Brandy

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do anything to look in their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta do to get in your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Coz baby I can't sleep

*blur*

Everything seems surreal. I'm not sure whether I've actually lived through today. All I know is, I walk out of PGP to take the bus. Oh, bus is here. Go up the steps, look for a seat. Sat and looked out of the window to familiar views. Just certain that the bus is going to stop at my destination. Then spending the afternoon with my comm members making souvenirs and chatting away. Discussed about the BBQ menu and I'm not sure whether my mind was right when making some decisions. All I could remember was my constant suggestion of adding fried rice somewhere in the menu. Fried rice and more fried rice. Came back to PGP after everything and went to return a table fan to a classmate. Walked the length of PGP many times. My body needed rest, I knew it, but I just have too many things to accomplish. Proceeded to clean Rainbow's cage and then waiting for dinner time. Fell asleep while waiting and then it was dinner. Constantly moving foodstuff into my mouth. Hmm. Cannot remember how they taste like. After showering, right now, I'm just in front of my comp typing my day out in the most mundane manner. I feel like a robot.

I, ROBOT.

I think I need rest. I'm so worn out after the whole semester of scurrying and now, after the exams, all I get is things to be done. I'm not complaining. Just that I'm afraid my lack of enthusiasm and the routine-like manner of doing things may just harm my decisions. And my actions.

Tireddddddddd.

Beautiful morning!

Woke up this morning at 9am to the sound of soft, swishing rain falling gently on my window. Haha. The weather is turning good for once after the 2 or more weeks of gruelling hot weather.

My exams have ended! Yay~ Went out yesterday to celebrate. Had wonderful dinner at Marche and bowled. Unfortunately I was not in a desirable financial state to shop. Would love to get myself more things. Heehee.

Anyway, this is just the beginning! I have so much more things lined up for the next week. Sentosa farewell for seniors, meetings after meetings after meetings, then settling some room booking stuff. Hopefully I don't get too overwhelmed. I need a rest desperately and the Sentosa event (I doubt) would be of any rest. Haha.

Well. Wish me luck. :)

WOAAAH!

Aaaah. Have not been blogging for the longest time.

Oh, oh oh oh...for the longest time...

Anyway. 3 papers down and one last one to go! But sadly, most of my friends are out somewhere in Singapore, ice-skating and eating wonderful stuff to their hearts' content. Whereas, I, me, moir, watashi, saya, have to be contented with oily PGP canteen food. SIGHS.

Hmm. History paper last Tuesday was kinda weird. I have S/U (pass/fail) optioned it, but I seem to spend loads of time on it. And in the end, the questions were pretty straightforward, no hair-jerking kind of critical thinking questions, and I only spent 1 hour writing 2 pages worth of stuff. Pathetically short lah. Grr. But nevermind. As long as I pass. Heh heh.

Then Physiology! My pet subject. Was damn confident. But my confidence didn't fail me though. Heehee. Managed to scribble loads and loads of stuff. :) But my last question was a waste! Had only 10 minutes to write a 20 marks essay so I ended up having to make everything as concise as possible without leaving the details out. And my handwriting...uh, horrendous lah. Heh. What's new.

And today's Biochemistry!! I would strangle myself if I could. Arrgh. It was a freaking tiring paper -- 60 MCQs and 3 SEQs. Died halfway through the MCQs. But moved on anyway. Brain was full of wool when I reach the SEQs. Arrrgh again. Hope I do OK...BUT I made a mistake of drawing the cyclic structure of mannose wrongly...of which it may cause me to fail one whole question. *shudder* *touchwood!*

Some interesting things have been happening lately. Heehee. If I were to tell you what it is, it'll be gossip.

Anyway, *sneeeeeeeeeze* it is still hot and humid in Singapore. No rain for more than ONE week! HOT HOT HOT.

And oh, can't wait for exams to be over! Yippee yay yay yay. But that would mean endless meetings and endless planning for the next 2 semesters. And mind you, it's not planning for my academic pursuits, but for the choir. Hai. I hope things would be fine for me.

Can't wait! Only 4 weeks and 4 more days!

Getting away from books!

Came back an hour ago from an outing to Singapore International Film Festival. After getting past the rub-shoulders type of reception in the lobby, walking into the cinema was like a walk back in time. The huge cinema with high ceilings and curved screen with drapes adorning the walls, it was as if I could see hordes of people in their cheongsams and kebayas rather than skimpy dresses.

Since tonight was the opening night, there were a couple of speeches and the introduction of the directors. Interestingly, Royston Tan was in a bunny outfit. Cute, but ugly. Kim Ki-duk (the Korean director) had a *lousy* translator with him which had difficulty translating. I suppose most of what Mr Kim wanted to mean was gone in the process.

Spring, Summer, Fall, Winter and Spring
The film itself was mind boggling. I still cannot figure out why the director used doors without walls so consistently in the film. And the constant use of rocks as well. It began with the little protegee (of an old monk) being mischievious, tying rocks to fishes and watching them swim, in amusement. The old monk, of course, wanted to teach him a lesson on retribution and suffering, tied a huge rock on the little boy while he was asleep. He was then directed to release all the animals while saying that if the animal dies, the rock will be in your heart forever.

Summer came, fastforward to 10 years later. A young man with youthful desires awakened by the arrival of a sick young lady to the monk's little hut. And well, his desires got better of him and he left the place. Some explicit scenes here.

Fall arrived with a man, fleeing after killing his wife. Filled with so much anger, he was taught to be at peace with himself. Season ends with his arrest by two *interesting* investigators.

Winter was the season of rebirth, of renewal. A grown man with a wiser head, he honed his skills and came to reclaim the hut. Life is a cycle, a woman came with her child one night to make him a monk. And the season ended with the death of the woman and him, climbing a mountain to place a statue at the top of the mountain (don't ask me why, I have no idea).

Spring came again with the little boy grown. The cycle begins again...

cut
A Singaporean mini-musical, it is an in-your-face type of humour. It openly criticises the censorship board. Dance sequence were pretty cheesy. But good attempt I guess.

Not too bad I guess.
Now, it's time to go back to calcium and phosphorus. Sigh.

Grrrr. I'm pissed.

1. I can't sleep!
2. Coz I'm pissed.
3. And I think I'm quite stressed.

Grrrr.

Leave me alone. I bite.

I ought to be sleeping, but I'm not.

Well, there's really nothing much to say. My first paper will be in 15 and 1/2 hours' time. I have done the necessary readings and I hope I have enough information in my head to tackle the questions.

Anyway, onto some complaints. (You can stop reading if you hate complains.) Just found that some people can be extremely irritating by trying to crack corny jokes that is obviously aimed directly at you. And they do it with such frequency that you start imagining weeds growing out of the pores of their faces. Ugh. And besides, what is their motive in attacking me directly? What have I done other than turning my nose at their usual feeble attempt at making jokes? And oh, couple that with tonnes of whining. DOUBLE UGH. Anyway, my natural defence would be: ignore the person completely.

Headache lah. Bodyclock is turning in reverse direction. I need a break.

Maybe it is more interesting now.

Right after I published the previous, I proceeded to make myself a mug of vitamin C drink. You know, those kind where you dissolve a huge effervescent tablet (this dosage form is developed because in solution form, it is easily absorbed by the body. Furthermore, the bubbles is a form of appeal to patients/consumers. And this, is part of what I am learning in Pharmacy. Haha.) and watch it dissolve while spewing lots of bubbles. Yup. So that was what I did. Dropped a tablet into my mug and the water splashed unto the remaining ones. And upon contact with water, dissolution is observed, complete with effervescent. Thinking that only one tablet is affected, I quickly removed the effervescing (no such word, I know) to find that more tablets are dissolving. HELP. So in the end, I saved none and I'm left with one mug of vitamin C solution.

Had an afternoon nap coz I was pretty frustrated with my slow slow studying progress. I have been sitting at the desk for a good few hours and nothing seem to go into my head. So a nap might do the trick. But due to the frustration, I had the most vivid and terrifying dream. You know those run-for-your-life kind of dream? Well, it involves me running up the stairs for 3 levels and to find that the subsequent "steps" leading up to level 5 is actually a ramp! And it's kinda slippery. Had to remove my shoes coz there's little friction. And the funny thing was, I was in fact running up the stairs to look for another pair of my shoes! Well, I could have taken the lift, but it wouldn't work properly without the two ladies. It's kinda haunted. What you do is, if you press 5, it wil go up to level 5 and the doors keep opening and closing. And when you try to come back down to level 1, it takes you to the basement and everywhere else except level 1. Spooky!

Nothing interesting here, you can go back to your work now.

Hullo all! I'm back! Well, I think I can justify my absence with the reason that the exams are drawing near. 2 more days! But peculiarly, I don't feel as stressed as I was back in JC. Maybe because there's less things to mug for. And perhaps it's due to the consistent work I have been putting in so far. Ah, shall not go on about this. Lest I be labeled as "basking in my own glory". Heehee.

Anyway, the weather's getting extremely crazy lately! Clouds pile in sky but no sign of raindrops. Rain lah, for heaven's sake. It's so hot and humid!

Something interesting though. My hamster doesn't bite as much now. At least she recognises my smell and is not afraid to eat from my hand. But ah, I still have trouble playing with her coz she's too fast and agile!

This post sounds super mundane. But really, there's really nothing much going on except that I'm plagued with the crazy spirit once in a while due to prolonged studying in the study room with Khim Nyang and friends.

Have a great week ahead! Not too sure when my next post will be. :) But watch this space!

Lovely

What is more lovely than to look up from the books and see a beautiful round creamy moon? *wistful sigh* :)

Go out and dance in the moonlight!

If only I could dance! The moon is extremely lovely tonight! And even yesterday, I was already enchanted by the mysteriousness of such a huge moon. If anyone actually noticed, the moon was very low last night. Hence it gives an illusion that it is hiding behind the trees. And with the clouds floating around it, the shimmering moonlight that was reflecting off the clouds mystifies the whole atmosphere even more. It was as if the scene was drawn right out of an old medieval-ish book.

*wistful sigh*

Some interesting things happened today. Things may change from today. I hope this is a good turning point.

Someone's been naughty eh

Hullo. Life's a bore. 9 more days to my first paper!! Arrgh.

What Am I to You?

What am I to you
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Fast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue

When you're feeling low
To whom else do you go
See I cry if you hurt
I'd give you my last shirt
Because I love you so

If my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I love you when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you

Yeah well if my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
Never wanna part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
Could you find a love in me
Could you carve me in a tree
Don't fill my heart with lies

I will you love when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you
What am I to you
What am I to you

Feelin' The Same Way Again

The sun just slipped its note below my door
And I can't hide beneath my sheets
I've read the words before so now I know
The time has come again for me

And I'm feelin' the same way all over again
Feelin' the same way all over again
Singin' the same lines all over again
No matter how much I pretend

Another day that I can't find my head
My feet don't look they're my own
I'll try and find the floor below to stand
And I hope I reach it once again

And I'm feelin' the same way all over again
Feelin' the same way all over again
Singin' the same lines all over again
No matter how much I pretend

So many times I wonder where I've gone
And how I found my way back in
I'll look around awhile for something lost
Maybe I'll find it in the end

And I'm feelin' the same way all over again
Feelin' the same way all over again
Singin' the same lines all over again
No matter how much I pretend

*grin* Norah Jones has a new album! I want it...should I splurge on it?

The Last Daze...

These few days went by in daze. Though mobility-wise I'm still pretty hampered, but at least now I'm walking faster and it isn't so tired to walk from my block to the canteen. But I still struggle a little whenever I need to go to the other end of PGP.

Received my Biochem results yesterday. Only 0.5 marks away from the highest scorer. Hah hah. Well, now I'm back to bask in my own glory.

Exams in 12 days. Arrrrrrrrrrrrgh.