Hullo!

In someone's room now...
Mac has died. Don't know hen I'll get it back...
Sighs.

Sundays

Ah...another Sunday. :)

Sundays are best enjoyed
- waking up to a sunny morning.
- listening to lovely classical music in the morning while sipping hot Milo.
- having leisurely lunch while enjoying the warm afternoon.
- hearing nothing but the rustling of trees as the afternoon breeze blows on.
- having wonderful thoughts the whole day.

:)

Charming young one

Just feel like posting a pic. Here goes.

On a high

I'm feeling extra happy today! I don't know why...though a little tired from singing 4 hours straight! A little slow I must say...managed to learn only 2 damn easy songs. Bleh. The Choir is certainly more advanced. *PROUD*

And this afternoon, I got a glimpse of something really interesting over the webcam. Heehee. Am pretty tickled by it. Even when I think of it, I could feel laughter bubbling at the edge of my lips. Dearest, you really make me laugh lah. Haha!

And this dear frind of mine just showed me this lovely range of bags *curiously* known as hobos. Heh. I fell in love with one of them. I want it! And I want to get ballet flats too...And I want a manicure...and a pedicure...and more skirts...and more nice frilly bras...Hohoho. Am starting to sound so bimbo! Ick.

Now, I gotta get down to work. Have been procrastinating for too long! But I want those stuff!

Why Engineers make a better boyfriend...

A hilarious email I received from a close friend quite a long time ago. Boy, am I glad to have a soon-to-be engineer boyfriend. *grin*
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Message: Today's lesson - Girls must be convinced, so learn to promote yourself - convince them that 'Engineers are the Best Boyfriends'

Let me tell you why girls should eventually marry an engineer over a Law, Management, Arts or Medical School Graduate. He has three distinct advantages over the rest of the graduates.

Advantage 1: Secure lifestyle
An engineer boyfriend can provide you with a secure lifestyle. At 27 years old, an engineer probably has a respectable, stable job that gives him a high income to own a car, invest, have a comfortable life, and get married and buy a house too. Law graduates are still working as a lowly apprentice in a law firm, most management graduates have just failed on their first business plan, the arts graduate is still looking for a job, and the medical school graduate is still living in a hospital.

Advantage 2: Unmatchable industriousness
An engineer boyfriend will dedicate an unimaginable amount of his time and effort to understand you. Engineers strain really really hard to understand their work. You can believe that they will try really really hard to understand women too, just like how they understand their work, once they believe that you are the one. So even if they don't understand you initially, they will keep on trying. Even if they still do not understand, they will figure out the correct method to keep you happy (e.g. buy diamond ring = 1 week's worth of happiness.) And once they find out the secret formula, they will just keep on repeating it so that the desired results appear. Unlike the Lawyer who will argue with you, the Management graduate who will try to control your spending, the Arts graduate who will 'change major', and the medical school graduate who will operate on you. And you know what, it's really so easy to make engineers believe that you are the 'one'. Say that you like one of their projects and they will be hooked to you forever.-

Advantage 3: An engineer boyfriend will never betray your trust.
Let me first tell you what is wrong with the rest of the others - the lawyers will lie about everything, management graduates will cheat your money, the arts graduate will flirt, and you probably just look like another cadaver to the medical school graduate. Your engineer boyfriend is either too busy to have an affair, and even if he does, he is too dumb to lie to you about that.

Hence, an engineer is the most secure boyfriend that you will ever find - rich enough, will keep on trying to understand and please you, has no time for affairs, and too dumb to lie to you. So girls, why procrastinate? Get an engineer for your boyfriend. Heehee.

How TRUE!

Got this off a person's site. Am not sure whether the person knew I had stumbled on the blog by accident. Anyway, this is somewhat true of what I am. Though I guess many would beg to differ. I can be loud and boisterous...but look at 17, they have a private and a public personality.

Introverts ...
1. love to read
2. have a few close, true friends
3. are excellent listeners
4. do not like to contribute in class
5. give people energy (extroverts take energy)
6. love to go to their room and close the door
7. may be exhausted by the social interaction required during a typical day at school
8. do not like group work
9. do not learn by repeating things out loud
10. like to connect the dots and insist on turning information in to knowledge
11. are very territorial
12. like to know about expectations well ahead of time
13. suffer from feelings of humiliation if they make a mistake in public
14. are intense
15. hate small talk
16. prefer to write rather than talk and especially don't like talking on the phone
17. have a private and a public personality
18. say what they mean
19. prefer not to say anything unless it is significant
20. need time alone to recharge their batteries

*beam*

It's approved! Yay yay yay! And it took only a mere 30 minutes for me to get pass the embassy gate, have myself checked, bag-checked twice and then the application plus interview and out of the gate again. It's so fast and efficient. I like! Heehee.

*happyhappy*

Now, I need to get my butt off and start working! No tests this semester does not equate to liberally slacking all I want! I still have to get good grades...

tears...

Sigh. I feel like crying.

Somehow I get this weird sense of security that when I pack my bags to go home, the tangled and unfinished business in Singapore will settle itself. And when I return, everything would be fresh and new for me to start over. But this is not the reality now. I came back to the same set of tangled and unfinished business I left behind. The few days of retreat is merely a sort of escape. Sigh.

I wish I had spent just a day or two more at home. I wish I spent time at home sorting out things rather than waste my time away in front of the TV. But again, it was also a form of escapism. To escape the thinking, and in the process, dig out memories and hurts that would leave me in pieces.

I'm not sure what I am doing is right. I just know I need a longer break than this. And I also know I need your emotional support even more at this time. I'm sure I'll be OK by
tomorrow. But right now, I just want to dwell and wallow in this missing and longing.

I miss my mommy. :(

Back.

I just got back from home. Sigh. Miss home already. Well, it's just meant to be short retreat only anyway. I *think* I feel refreshed and all ready to go. I don't know. Well, my luggage is still on the floor and nothing is unpacked. I am already online, checking my mails and making sure I did not miss out anything important.

Tomorrow's gonna be a busy day. And the day after and the day after the day after...I will only be "free" when I relinquish this post. Wooh~ I can't wait.

Just a li'l cold...

I fell sick again! Argh. And I just recovered from it like a month ago? Must really take good care of myself...

Anyway, am writing under the heavy influnce of codeine phosaphate and carbinoxamine. So there you go. *blahblahblah*

Did the most sinful thing I'd ever done in my whole academic life. I skipped the morning lecture (cos I was dreadfully tired), came in half an hour late for the 2nd lecture (well, something cropped up) and I left an hour early from my last lecture. And yet, I still feel tired. Gah.

I better stop typing or I will just concuss right on my laptop.

Cheers~

Morning

Had just the weirdest dream in a long time. My constant worry for choir has finally manifested itself in this dream where we went for competition and we sounded like shit. And there was this part in the competition where the judges would listen (duh) and decide that we have potential. So on top of the normal marks they gave us, they would give us tokens to help us increase our points. Our choir received so much of that. Sigh. I was so damn upset when we were singing because we really sounded bad. Anyway, I hope it will remain as a dream and not come true.

On a totally unrealated matter, in the same dream, we were on our way to the competition. Funnily, we had to travel in this mode of transport that constantly goes in and out of water. Thus, the constant filling of our ears and noses with water. Well, I guess in this case, it's quite real in mine cos I was having runny nose. So yeah...some humour in the dream. Pretty lame, I might say.

And then there was this part, where I got extremely upset after the competition and there was this particular someone (shall not mention names here) put his arms around me and comforted me. Gave me his hand to hold as well. It was like...weird.

Weird dream indeed. Just shows how concerned I am over the choir. But it's pretty useless cos nobody seems to care at the same time. Sigh.

I have to resort to this

I turned to the left, and I saw thorns.
I turned to the right, and I saw arrows coming towards me.
So I looked up, and saw that icicles are falling on me.
And I looked at where I stood, to find that I have been stepping on a bed of nails.

Sigh.

A letter to my unknown readers

Dear ____,

How are you lately? You must have been reading quite a bit about me on this blog. Well, I'm sure you are content in getting to know me through this manner. But I do implore you, to get to know through other means, as the things written on the blog are very much just blog-worthy things. In other words, they are observations of quirkiness, of mundane routines and of temporal outbursts. If I were you, I would not treat this blog as a complete representation of me. I would always like to see the better side of the person as he/she would have protrayed himself/herself in their blog.

Have a great time reading.

Yours sincerely,
w in d~

Ah...

The cool night breeze gently caressed my face as she carried along her little secrets, revealed only to those who would listen. She brushed past ambitious young men and self-made young women without making her presence known -- she is too gentle and delicate to deal with them. She sighed. But no one heard. Her heart called out, and hoped that one day, she would be like the wind.

Someday, she told herself, I would be as well known as the wind. I would attract attention with my mere presence.

But no matter how she tried, she remained the gentle breeze that only a few would notice. She did not realise how wrinkly old men would sit in her path and enjoy her teasings. She did not notice how little children would giggle as she joined them in play. She did not see that there is a girl, sitting on the rocks, enjoying every caress the night breeze brings.

I long to be like that girl, just sitting at the rocks, sharing my thoughts and imaginations with the night breeze. I want to stay and listen to her little secrets. If only I could...

Here and there

Sigh. Another bad news has reached my ears. It must be coincidence. Or some divine plan of some sort to make me ever so wary.

I am feeling weak and tired. This flu is really keeping zapping all the energy I have. Argh.

Anyway, I shouldn't be complaining. I have just downloaded the newest version of MSN Messenger for Mac and I am damn happy.

Disapppointment galore!

I am pissed. Upset. Disappointed. And at the verge of giving up. I am sooooo tired! It's pretty frustrating to be more or less alone. Especially when you trust your whole committee to be present for an event. But no. The whole dinner was a disaster. Only half the expected number turned up. Giving free treats don't seem to work anymore.

Teach me how! What should I do? What have I not done? And what have I done to deserve this? I am sinking deeper and deeper into a hole. I am trying to keep myself afloat but I am very tired now. Argh.

I have developed a sore throat and runny nose. I really feel like skipping stuff on Monday. To avoid my responsibilities for once. Argh.

I am a cancer, so this is what it says about me.

Certainly not the easiest person to understand, you are an introvert with a capital I. Emotions are hidden beneath the tough exterior that you possess -- quite similar to the crustacean that represents your zodiac sign. Although you can be kind and affable, your mood swings are unpredictable, tending to be bitter and melancholic, often feeling hurt unnecessarily. While you like to draw sympathy, you can be fairly insensitive towards others, snapping, being rude and short-tempered. However, your seemingly cruel behavior is only a clever means to hide your own insecurities and complexes. Inside, you are almost like a timid, hurt child. You can be admirably kind, generous, understanding and gracious, if all is well with you. Cancerians can be seen involved in many charitable activities, although they will all be at a very public level. No matter how unpleasant you may seem to some people, you have a conscience that prompts you to do the right things - like standing by people in their time of need. Like most water signs, you too have good intuitive powers and mostly put them to good use in managing your life. You have an urge to travel to distant lands but you are a home-loving person. You can do without being so crabby, if one may say so. Keep your moods in check. Remember the people you hurt most often are the ones who have been good to you. You tend to make a mountain out of the molehill and are prone to self-pity. Reserve some of your sensitivity for others who may need it. You can be a tad untidy which won't endear you to more stable signs. Hmmphf. I think I am so tidy that that everything has its place.

Are they true? I suppose the last line about being untidy is totally wrong.

Update ah

Ah. Another day over. Time is going past too quickly! It is already week 5 and I'm still seem to be living in some surreal world. I don't seem to be really into my work. Argh. This cannot be! I must do well this semester again! Hee.

Well, nothing much really. Just missing a couple of people. Hoping that I could see Norlan again before she goes off...and hoping that December would come quickly so that I can see him!

*jitter*

Is this a bad omen? I am fearful. In just the span of 2 days, I got the news of 3 couples having broken up. The weirdest of all is, I know all 6 people. They are mature and thoughtful and nice. But yet...it's so fragile and vulnerable. I can't help but to fear...

Beautiful girls in beautiful performance

Merry Widow was SUPERB! It was superb superb! Ooooh, I can't wait to tell you all about it. :)

It's getting late now, I should go to bed...

Good night!

WIDE Awake

Just a little humid and warm tonight. And yes, I am still awake! I've gone to bed at 8.30pm and got woken up at 11pm by a phonecall from a dear friend! I cannot wait to see her tomorrow! (Or rather, today)

Since I was awake, I finished the reading I left off before I dozed away and did some studying to prepare for tomorrow's Stats lab session. And I tried going back to sleep...but neighbour was playing some funny Viet song over and over again so I was woken up again. Now that you are reading this, it obviously means that I am still trying to make myself go to sleep.

This weekend is going to be another crazy weekend! I have to finish reading The Moonstone by Wednesday (the latest) and prepare for a test on Wednesday. At the same time, I have to finish writing a Lit essay by this weekend because it is due on Thursday! Yargh. And there's another crazy practical on Wednesday as well...

I get so stressed when weekend comes cos I have to do so much preparation for the following days, ie Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. Sigh. Throw in Thursday as well lah since I have choir on that day. So that leaves me a slightly relaxed day on Friday! Whoopee.

I think I better stop trying to make myself feel bored; I'm getting hyped up instead. I have to wind down...perhaps listening to your soothing voice would help? Heh. Goodnight!

Still tireddddddd...

Wah. This is the first time I'm typing this blog from Firefox browser! And I love it. So convenient and absolutely compatible with so many things. Heehee.

Anyway, this nice song I've just heard. :)

I Think Of You - Tata Young

When I'm down and all alone
When nothing seems to matter
When I lose my hope
When I'm sad and confused

When it all gets turned around and 'round
I can't seem to reach for solid ground
When everything I've believed in seems untrue
All I have to do

[Chorus]
Is think of you
I think of you and it's gone
Like you chase away the storm
Making it all okay
I think of you
I think of you and I'm strong
And I know I can go on
It's like you set me free
When life gets the best of me
I just think of you

Now I know what love means
And whatever life may hold for me
Through the fire
Through the rain I believe

Cause there's nothing I can't bear
Knowing that you will be there
If I fall I won't break
Through it all I'll make it through
Cause all I have to do

[Chorus]

And when I think I'm all alone
I can't see the way to go
Lost in the rain of my own tears
To wash away the pain and fear

[Chorus]

For the good times and the bad times
I just think of you
Cause you know you get the best of me
I just think of you