*sigh*

I think I might have caused some alarm with my previous posts. Well folks, I have yet to see a doctor to confirm whether I actually have depression. HAHA.

Anyway, sitting nicely on my shelf are The Powders (containing Acetylsalicylic Acid and Caffeine) and The Powders (containing charcoal and lactose). The former's for migraine and the latter, poisoning. I think. I did them myself. *beams*

On the way back to my room, this Caucasian guy in front of me has the symbol 'pi' tatooed on his calf. I guess either he is a Math freak or he just likes pies. I mean, the symbol looks cooler than 'pie', don't you think?

I'm just tired. I want a 5-day week. *grumble*

I HATE YOU! And I hate myself too.

Death

Sometimes death could be a better solution.

Grateful for our names.

This is an interesting article. Go see it here.

Since we're at it, my Chinese name is pronounced as Wei1 Ling2 instead of the horrid Wei3 Ling2. And Wei1 is a name of a flower and Ling2, comes from cong1 ming2 ling2 li4. Heh.

Maybe they are related.

Maybe the loose-ness of the ring has something to do with today's event.

Maybe I should have just shut up even when I know I'm still right.

Maybe if the rain doesn't keep on pouring for the last 24 hours.

Maybe if I were a little stupider and went elsewhere instead.

Maybe it has something to do with the death of Hot Babe.

Maybe I should just stop wondering and get on with my tutorials instead.

SIGH.

Kyo wa, kumori desu.

Will tomorrow, I wonder, be cloudy or clear?
It was cloudy in the morning. And now it's pouring. The weather seems to reflect emotions pretty well.

Have a good day, all.

Loose

Well, the ring that I wear all the time, it's loose. HOW? And I've been wearing it on my fattest finger already! Should I try the thumb?

Ashita wa Hare kana, Kumori kana

Kino no kana shimi
Kyo no namida
Ashita wa hare kana
Kumori kana

Kino no kuru shimi
Kyo no nayami
Ashita wa hare kana
Kumori kana

Happy Chinese New Year!

Stayed in hostel the whole day. I didn't feel like going out and I'm just too lazy to do my tutorial. First lesson on Monday and it's a tutorial! Geez.

Anyway, spent the afternoon hanging around the virtual space, reading other people's blog. Read a bit and then went to buy some potatoes and had ice cream! Whee~ Oh, and the cookies and cream ice cream was my lunch...

Cooked dinner for company and they said the vege I made was good! Maybe it's just the red bowl...

On the other hand, I felt really lonely today. It's Chinese New Year's for goodness sake and I don't have my family with me. Well, shan't complain so much since it is ME that decided not to go home. It's just everything. The hot and sunny weather reminded me a lot of Penang. Like, we would wake up at about 9am, have a light breakfast, get dressed and then go to aunt's house. We would have our lunch there and once we get started on the New Year goodies, we don't stop. Normally we would hang around for about 6 hours or so while waiting for everybody (meaning, the rest of my father's sisters and brothers) to arrive. My cousins, mostly married with toddlers would have their hands full giving out ang pows and looking after their kid. My mom and dad would be like grandparents, bouncing these babies on their knees. While me and my brother would just stone in front of the TV watching TVB variety shows. This is probably the only few times of the year that me and my brother are close friends. Sigh. Then if time permits, we would drive over to the island to visit my maternal grandmother and uncles. And when night falls, we would watch loads of TV and fall asleep really quickly. I miss the times when my maternal grandfather would still be alive and my cousin have not migrated to New Zealand. We would watch Tang Bohu Dian Chiuxiang without fail every year. There's so much fun eating the lovely Penang laksa and mua chee. The stroll down Gurney Drive while admiring everybody else playing sparklers and small firecrackers. Then we would all just sit by the beach (with no sand. Heh.) and talk. All of us, my tua yee's family of five, my family of four, and my other cousin's family of three together with my grandparents and my two unmarried uncles (one was unmarried then). But now, things have changed a little bit. My grandfather's no longer around and my uncle is married.

This place is extremely quiet with almost all the Malaysians going home and even more that went to stay with their relatives. What should I do tomorrow?

Yesterday's sorrows
Today's tears
Will tomorrow, I wonder,
Be cloudy or clear?

Yesterday's troubles
Today's pain
Will tomorrow, I wonder,
Be cloudy or clear?

A Sudden Surge of Emotions

How depressing it is to realise that some things that is being worked on right now may not bear fruit in the future. I know I'm being a worrywart again. But I'm always hoping for the best although the possible negative outcomes do distract me at times.

Right now, I'm worried. And I can't so much about that issue except to wait.

And just an hour ago, I was on a high, after watching crappy adverts on GreenLambie's comp. And now, I'm worried shitless. Urrrrgh.

How I wish you're around to soothe my worries.

Arrrrgh. I don't know what to do. I miss home, I miss RJ days, I miss the choir and I miss YOU most of all.

Whooopee!

Happy Chinese New Year everybody! This year is slightly different. I'm actually not spending this festive season with my family. Heehee. Am still in Singapore. Anyway, spent the whole of today (yesterday?) baking and cooking! Though I kinda cheated by using some packed sauce, but the end result was good I must say. At least I think ABC soup was good. I'm motivated to learn how to cook more dishes! Yay. But of course, not at the expense of my studies lah...

And I baked! Read the recipe wrongly and the first batch came out soft and un-cookie-like. Looks like I added too little flour. Oh well, try adding flour while the second batch is inside the oven. Oh dear. The dough looks lumpy!! Sighs. Sent those into the oven and it came out hard. Like dog food. Or koi food. Fed some to Johnson (heh heh) and other friends. But the rest ended up in the bin. And did I mention the second batch got burnt? Sigh. Bad bad day for baking indeed.

But dinner was fun! Cooked too much food and all of us were happily full. Though Mr Johnson kept insisting that he's pregnant.........

Spent the night watching crappy adverts. But then there were a few good ones. Like those Mac adverts. Hee. And the Korean sandart one.

Valentine's

*GROAN* It's that time of the year again. *Note: I might repost this post.

Lovey-dovey couples, pink hearts and red hearts , laces, chocolates, roses...Why do I have to spend it alone again?

For less-complaints and more-appreciating posts, please go to her blog and her blog.

Some frustrating issues

One girl got raped and she died. The suspects should be heavily punished, in my opinion. For more of the news, read this.

On a more personal note, I find it frustrating to want to do something but my "progress" is hampered due to the un-cooperativeness of another party. Of which, the said party is an important aspect of the "journey" that I desire to embark upon. Urrgh.

On a lighter side, Chinese New Year is coming! No red packets for me this time round. :(

Simple Pleasures

Isn't it lovely to be busy doing some work and then look out of the window to find that it is raining?

Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow

I'm not sure how this song came into my mind. Perhaps because I heard it sung by this other girl in choir and it reminded me of something. Something that I still have difficulty putting my finger on. I believe I heard it somewhere in a show. You know those scene when someone's driving and there's some oldie or another being played in the car radio. Isn't it weird that this song is stuck in my mind? Haha.

Anyway. Lovely song from Carole King. Came across a few sites doing some analysis of the songs she wrote. And this is something about post-coitus interragation. Pretty obvious eh?
***
Tonight you're mine completely
You gave your love so sweetly
Tonight the light of love is in your eyes
But will you love me tomorrow

Is this a lasting treasure
Or just a moment's pleasure
Can I believe the magic of your sights
Will you still love me tomorrow

Tonight with words unspoken
You said that I'm the only one
But will my heart be broken
When the night(When the night)
Meets the morning (Meets the morning)sun

I'll like to know that your love
Is love I can be sure of
So tell me now and I won't ask again
Will you still love me tomorrow
Will you still love me tomorrow
Will you still love me tomorrow

Photos update.

They are UP! Go see them HERE!!

Classes!

Just came back from a trip to Snetosa island. It's a weird trip I might say. Frankly, I wasn't looking forward to the trip at all. And it really didn't help when the sky became overcast at 1pm yesterday and proceeded to shower blessings on us at about 2pm. Then ALL the things that we have to bring there. Urgh.

Well, at least the sky turned clear again around 4pm and we played games. Sun wasn't too strong and hence I have no tan. Volleyball, singing, soccer, Taboo, finishing stories and rhyming games were the few of the activities we indulged in besides the usual dose of dunking people into the dirty sea and eating. But we were lucky to have found shelter underneath a yet-to-be removed canopy. Imagine, a large sheltered area belonging to us only! Was just thinking what would happen if we were to settle in little pondoks instead. And did I mention the there was a little rain as well...

Well. Right now I'm back in my room, still not tanned and still pretty unenthusiastic over things. Argh.

Btw, I have signed up for Pilates class. Look forward to seeing a fitter and trimmer me! Yay.

Stupidity

I swear I am the stupidest person on earth. I just am. I was in denial for long enough.

Lessons

1. I learnt that springform pans (used for baking) are actually immensely useful.
2. I might be too busy (with non-academic stuff) for my own good.
3. Making unbaked cheesecakes are kinda tricky.

I'm missing something. I feel like I'm missing something. But I'm not sure what. Perhaps it's you I'm missing. Perhaps it's the tau huey that I'm missing. Perhaps it's choir that I'm missing. I don't know.

Hair advertisement

I was in the bus back to PGP yesterday and I saw this advertisement being played on TVMobile (the moving TV. Anyway.). Three guys in tight-fitting white tops were singing. Their hair were in mohawk style with the height of about 1 foot. Nicely gelled up (since the advert's about hair gel) and straight. One guy was singing this ultra slow, 55-beats-to-the-minute "If You're Happy Clap Your Hair (Hands)". And when the part where we're supposed to clap our hands, their hair split in the middle down the mohawk and clapped. And all these happened while the guy was singing with a serious face. Now, the combination of all these made me want to laugh out loud. I mean, it's a fast song being sung slow, plus it's spoofed, and the action of hard-gelled hair clapping. Funny, I tell you. But I resisted. I bet I would have had a hearty laugh if someone was with me. Haha.

School starting soon. :(

Well, the title says it all. And it's already Sunday. I've not printed my lecture notes yet and I think I should do some reading before the lecture. Yes...

2004!

Blogger was down for the past few days (I think), and I had so much to blog about.

1. Happy New Year everybody. Wanted to do a listed well-wishing but it's just too much. But special greetings to Nadia and Rachel, my dearest friends; Wee Lee, you have a special place in my heart and not forgetting my darlingest darling LY, thanks for EVERYTHING. *kiss, hug, smack*

2. I'm going back to Singapore tomorrow. (Today, actually)

3. Had a great and fulfilling holidays at home even though it's only a short 2 weeks! Stingy people. Tssssk.