Back to earth. Bah.

I was happily slacking for the past 2 months and gleefully cruising through my tests and what-nots and suddenly I realised this is coming to an end. I have a million deadlines to meet and they are all important!! Argh. Stress stress. *pat pat* Arrrrgh. And there's lots of tests one after another...SIGH. Stress stress. Have not have this rush of adrenaline for a long time. As much as I dread it, it's the only way I can be at my best (I think) and it's the only way to get me to work. To all who think I'm a bloody mugger in JC. I think you guys are right. If you still think I'm a bloody mugger. NOPE. I'm as slack as dear Johnson (sorry, man) now. Sigh. And I know I'm gonna be screwed soon if I don't buck up. I still want my Dean's List and First Class Honours and a foreign country to buy me out of the bond with Singapore!! Yep. that should motivate me enough at this moment. I hope.

And to you, you, you. I miss you so much! How long do I have to wait till I can see you again? *groan*

TITLE!

Yay. I added something so that I won't forget to put in the title every time I blog. *grin*

Now. Back to drawing (Z,Z,Z)-octadeca-6,9,12-trienoic acid.

I want these!

1. YOU, my dear. Right now.
2. iPod. (I'm moved finally.)
3. Air-con.
4. A study lamp.
5. Bigger book shelf.

JUST A FEW THINGS

Anatomy lesson today was hilarious. We were taught how to do physical examination on our patients. Namely inspecting, palpating, percussing and auscultating them. So we were discussing about abdominal distensions etc when the lecturer digressed to ingenuil (unsure of spelling) hernia and about how pre-NS guys had to look away and cough with their pants down. Then our lecturer decided to try hands-on (Anatomy lecturers are always emphasising on hands-on experience) using 2 students as model doctor and patient. So these 2 guys, Classmate A and Classmate B were 'chosen' for this noble task. Classmate A (in labcoat with berms underneath thus making him look like a flasher) quickly volunteered to be the doctor. Meanwhile Classmate B was standing near the examination table unbottoning his labcoat. And as the camera (yes, they do recordings of the lesson) closed up on him, we could see Classmate B was trying to pull his pants down as well!! Thinking that he is to show what a normal hernia-less groin would look like. And since over 80% of the class are girls...yep, you get the picture.

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Noticed I have quite a few scars on my right arm. I know for sure one is due to scalding during one lab session and a few other dubious ones...must be those chemicals we dabble with. Anyway, I shall be a bit more careful.

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Crazy period is coming! And it spans 2 weeks or more. *pumps chest* Think I can do it?

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Have been blissfully unaware of home news recently. So many things have happened. And I'm hungry now. (YES. It's totally out of point)

Eh. The time on Blogger doesn't match the time on darling Mac. Hmmm.

Argh. I just lost everything I've posted. Just because I was curious and clicked on "Create New Post". OK. Stupid me. I know. Stop giving me that look.

Well, it has been raining since 4am this morning (I think). Was vaguely aware of the pitter-patter on the windowpane, but lazy me was too bogged down by inertia to even move a finger. Ah well. And was pretty happy that the rain decided to stop. Only for a few hours and it started to pour. Like there's no tomorrow. Made me miss my tutorial! Not entirely the rain's fault, but mine too. Should've brought the brolly everywhere I go now. JUST IN CASE. And right now, at 10.40pm, it's still raining. Though it's relatively much lighter than this morning's rain. Outside is cold and I think the temperature is about 25 degrees. Thank goodness for my warm room and a hot mug of chocolate. Yummy. Oh, and Norah Jones singing in the background. Ah, nice way to spend a rainy night. If only the 8am class tomorrow would stop nagging at the back of my mind. :S

Welcome back WL!! It's great to know you're doing so well in Philly. :)

CRY

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

The moment that I saw you cry

It was late in september
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But i was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you
i wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....

I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one would find...

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

Ini kali pertama aku mem-blog dalam Bahasa Melayu. Sedikit kekok, namun terpaksalah. Demi memastikan aku masih boleh berkomunikasi dalam bahasa ini.

Hujan sedang turun. Hatiku juga seperti hujan, kesedihan melimpah tidak terhenti-henti. Kenapalah begini, ku tak tahu. Hanyalah kau yang memahamiku. Tapi, di manamu dalam saat-saat sebegini?

Memories. They're such mysterious things. Where are they stored in the brain? How are they triggered when one sees familiar things? Hmm. Has it got to do with psychology?

The first and last verse of a nice Norah Jones song.

I tried so hard, my dear, to show
that you're my every dream
Yet you're afraid each thing I do
Is just some evil scheme

The more I learn to care for you
the more we drift apart
Why can't I free your doubtful mind
and melt your cold, cold heart?

RANDOMNESS

The koi pond in my residence has very interesting fishes. Since it's a man made pond (what in Singapore is not? Heh.), there're a few flower pots lying around in the pond with some plants. Some are empty and are left just there. There is this particular one where the kois like to go pass and then decide that the distance between the rim of the pot and water surface is less than their, uh, height. So instead of doing a reverze, they flip their bodies sideways and 'hopped' across the pot. Such silly little things. And they are not flexible enough to do a 180 degrees turn.

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Jazz music has always been a neutral genre of music until I discovered Norah Jones. Right now, jazz will remain my favourite for a while.

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I must have been the most irritating lab partner today.
1. I slacked around...did only 6 or 7 out of the 30 odd readings for surface tension experiment.
2. Acted as their supervisor.
3. Told a lot of unnecessary jokes and stories.
In the process I received "a piece of s***" and countless threats to whack me by the guys. What is wrong with me?

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I deserve a slap in the face. For I know I had ongoing gastric-like pain last few days but I am still not eating dinner.

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Something has changed.

SUPRISE!!

Ah. I forgot my headings for the last few posts. Never mind. I shall try to remember for future posts. ANYWAY, I received 2 mails from US today! Double joy! A postcard from Prof Wang *wink* and a long letter from LY. Thanks so much.

Anyway, I am impressed with Mom. She can even nag me through MSN!! Asking me to go cut my long long hair and not to perm it. Also, lamenting the amount of time I spent on long distance calls. Haha. Then I rebutted with the international sms-es to her. Nyehaha.

So yup. First tuition in my life tomorrow! Hope the boy's not too cheeky.

Either I'm mean, or this person is an idiot. Conversation on ICQ. (Name has been changed to protect ownself)

K:
hie can be fren??
w in d~ :
who is this
K:
can be fren ah??
w in d~ :
who is this
K :
urm...my name is k....nickname only....18/m/klang...u??
w in d~ :
sorry.not interested.
K :
oo..fren olso dont wan???
w in d~ :
small boy....go and study lah
K :
oo..yaka...u think u so big la
w in d~ :
what makes you think i'm small.
K:
ur age
w in d~ :
hah. so you actually think i put my real age online>
w in d~ :
that's pretty naive of you to think so
K:
oh..then wat is ur real agE??
w in d~ :
so if i don't even reveal my realy age on my personal particulars, do you think i'd reveal it to a stranger like you?>
K:
hahah...then y u said tis
K:
hah. so you actually think i put my real age online>
w in d~ :
pardon my paranoia. but cyberspace is an unsafe place.
w in d~ :
so now could you please bugger off. thank you.
K:
dont wan..........hey do u think i wan to pikat u or something..haha...i jus wanna be fren la

Well, just being very paranoid about giving too much information online. And paedophiles/potential rapists/porn agencies/scam workers are always trying to be friendly. Hmmphf. Maybe I could have made a good online friend, but it's really not worth the risk.

I quite like my room. Looking out, I can see a dense forest (only a layer to obstruct the view of a road behind it) and occasionally hear animal grunts (motorcycles and cars passing by). And if I'm really lucky, then I might even get to hear a tiger roar! (SBS bus service 200) And since it just rained a few hours ago, the stream (none other than rainwater running down a longkang) is now running at its full speed. And I can hear crickets too! (Now, this is real) Ah, what bliss to stay in this room. Surrounded by elements of nature. *grin*

An informal poll for my readers. :)

Q: Would you prefer cereal in milk/Milo/whatever else
A. Crispy?
B. Soggy?
C. Totally dissolved in the uh, solvent? Heh.

Please place your decisions in my comment box below. Thank you for your time!

Urgh. Bad tummy ache. Suspect it's the bun I had at 9.50am this morning.
Me: Why does this bun taste a bit sourish? [takes a big bite] Is it supposed to be lke this? [takes another big bite]
Candice: Eh. Maybe it's already spoiled.
Me: Oh? Hmmm. [swallows the last bit]
Shucks. Thanks to my gluttony. Now I can't even drink water without having the quesy feeling in the tummy. :(

But!! HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY! Talked to him. And he's wonderfully sweet these days. Hmmm.

Oh, and Zhong Qiu Jie Kuai Le!

And to you, thanks for everything. Thanks for the beautiful 11 months. :)

FALLEN

I've decided to be like WL and use headings. :)
Anyway, quite an eventful day today. Went for Physiology lecture and left halfway coz I have fallen sick. With the usual bout of fever and sore throat. Good thing there isn't runny nose coz that's the very sucky part of getting sick. Hah. That reminds me of A Level Biology Paper 3 (Options) day. Used up 2 and a ahlf packets of tissue throughout the whole 1 and half hour. And the invigilator was mildly amused when she came over to collect my paper. Heh. ANYWAY. I digress. So while I was walking down the slope near RH, I slipped on stone and fell *boom*, nicely on my bum. The steps hit my back and I think there's a big bad bruise there now. :( And nobody to help me rub it...

So there you go. A klutz in action. Have been involved in various stupid accidents recently.

Just came back from attending a moot session. Sort of. Went all the way to Shenton Way with a friend and found out that I cannot enter the room. So the whole of my 4 hours was wasted getting to know Law year 2s and reading the ridge from cover to cover. Oh, not to mention reading the Centenary book of the law firm as well. SIGH. What was I doing? And what was in my mind? Somehow I always seem to end up doing this kind of 'accompanying' people and getting angry with myself in the end. Is being nice putting others first and above myself?

I'm angry. At myself. At the way things work. And at the way I allow myself to be nice to the point that I sacrifice my time.

Oh...and I'm also uptight about something else. Maybe it's not too appropriate to blog about it. Maybe it's meant to remain confidential. I don't know. But I'm upset over how little contact I have with him. I'm not complaining about the phonecalls I get from him almost everyday...it's not cheap, I know. But somehow things seem to be different. We talk different and we are always so busy. URGH. I'm expecting too much I think.

BUT STILL.

Tomorrow's Zhong Qiu Jie. Beautiful moon tonight. Another beautiful festival/celebration/special day without him.

Somewhere out there

Somewhere out there
Beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me
And loving me tonight

Somewhere out there
Someone's saying' a prayer
That we'll find one another
In that big somewhere out there

And even though I know
How very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing
On the same bright star

And when the night wind
Starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping
Underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there
If love can see us through
Then we'll be together
Somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true
 
And even though I know
How very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing
On the same bright star

And when the night wind
Starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping
Underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there
If love can see us through
Then we'll be together
Somewhere out there

Out where dreams come true...

YUCKS! I smell like amine...Urgh. Thought Chemistry pracs are usually pretty clean except for the solids that get stuck underneath the fingernails once in a while. But no. Amine stayed with me throughout the day. Through all the shopping and walking around in Jurong Point. Argh. And I didn't realise until I get back to the room to do some cleaning. So what I need now is a bath!

Am quite proud of myself coz I managed to do almost all of the tests except 2! Yay. And that took me about 2 hours.

ANYWAY. Bought quite a lot of stuff today. Mom is gonna freak out when she sees my account. Hah.

Stuff I bought:
1. Hairdryer
2. Iron
3. Gifts
4. Wallet for myself!

And those plus meals add up to about 150+ dollars. Woooh.

OK. I am just doing some listings. Pretty bored...and I still smell like amine. My lab coat smells like amine. My bag smells like amine. The whole room smells like amine! ARGH!

A nice song sung in the choir. Initially hated it, but somehow singing it today almost made me cry. Hmmm.

Now Every Tree
Thomas Weelkes

Now every tree renews his summer's green,
Why is your heart in winter's garments clad?
Your beauty says, "My love is summer's queen."
But your cold love like winter makes me sad.

Then either spring with buds of love again,
With buds of love again,
Or else congeal my thoughts with your disdain.

It's mooncake festival in PGP tonight! The moment I stepped out of the bus, I was greeted by masses of people with glowing lanterns. A beautiful sight to behold. But they could have dimmed all the lights at least. :) Had quite a bit of fun with some Bruneians, chatting over our glowing lanterns. Could have stayed for a while more if it wasn't for the drizzle and my aching feet. Heh.

Anyway, about today's tests. I'm so glad it's over. At least now I can slow down my pace a bit. Realised I've been scurrying around for the past week. And my goal for uni life is "Relax as much as possible". Trying to take things in my stride. Though I'd love to take on more things because of challenge but I know I'll be doing those stuff without any improvement to self...that is, no time for self reflection. Which, I think is an important part of being a human. Sometimes pausing and looking back does the soul some good.

ACK. Why am I rambling again. Must be the rain. Yipee!

Btw, I think I'll be rich quite soon. Am going to take up a tuition job soon. Yay. Then more money to go to US!!

Thank God for all of the above.

And oh, the tests are somewhat more manageable than RJ's tests? I don't know. And I didn't study particularly hard...though I DID have the intention to do so. Heh.

Long post today...but I'm relieved. Tomorrow's shopping day with James!

ZL made me a blinkie!! Many many thanks to her. :) Thanks buddy.

Tests are over!! Physio was fine, but could have written more for the Nervous System essay. And Organic chem was very fun to do! Just that I did this calculation for fun and forgot it's existence thereafter. Heh. And was wondering why the second seem to lack some information. Hah. *knock head*

Btw, here's the blinkie.

Email alert!! I have 101 emails to reply! And I can see the moon now at 6pm! (major digression...anyway.)

OK. So this Wednesday would be email-replying day, laundry day and clean floor day. Yay.

Tests tomorrow. I don't feel prepared. Urgh. Bet those other Pharm people are mugging their heads off already. Why am I so slack.

Mommy is in town!! And her first comment when she sees me is, "What happened to you? Why so thin already? And look at your sunken eyes!" Oh dear. That really did make me nervous for a while. But I think the 'thinner' me is due to an oversized T-shirt I was wearing and the sunken eyes...well...maybe I've not been sleeping enough. Or maybe my tear ducts have been overworking. Dumdeedum. There's Anatomy tomorrow! Can't wait.

Sometimes I wish I'm guy for reasons like this. *grin*

Grow Old With You
Adam Sandler

[Billy Idol (Speaking):] Good afternoon everyone.
We're flying at 26,000 feet, moving
up to thirty thousand feet, and then we've got clear skies
all the way to Las Vegas, and right now we're bringin you some in-flight
entertainment. One of our first-class passengers has written a song
inspired by one of our coach passenger, and since we let our first-class
passengers do pretty much whatever they want, here he is.

[Robbie Hart (Singing):]
I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

This is the first time in many years that I actually felt like this. I am bored of choir. Maybe it's the people, or maybe it's just me. I don't know. But then again, I survived the most hostile environment in RJ Choir and what is this Choir compared to RJ. And the people in this Choir is much friendlier, less judgmental and less arrogant. Everybody is there to learn something from each other. Or maybe it's the conductor. He's like a prima donna. Can't believe I used to think so highly of him. But to quit choir just because of him? I don't know. But then again, I long for the efficiency in RJ and the speed we learn songs and get things done. Why are things so slow...gets on my nerves all the time. Johnson would know how much I hate people wasting my time. And of course, he would know how particular I am with punctuality. Anyway, I digress.

*SIGH*

I miss him so much. And what can I do to alleviate this 'missing'? :(

OK. I am not supposed to do this.

1. I have 2 tutorials tomorrow and I'm barely halfway through the Physiology tutorial. Not to mention the other one, have only read a few paragraphs of SEA history and happily dozed off to a 4-hour nap thereafter. I am such a PIG.
2. Blunder of all blunders. Managed to misplace my file 20 minutes before aa choir performance yesterday! And all of my scores are gone! But thank God everything was fine in the end because there's an extra file and score. Phew.
3. Mommy's coming to Singapore tomorrow! YAY.
4. I have lovely friends. :)
5. And an extremely understanding boyfriend. *giggle*

Right. Back to work.