And those spots are raindrops...it was drizzling.

Haha. Some interesting facts about Malaysia.

*It is southeast Asia's principal tourist destination, offering excellent beaches, brilliant scenery and spectacular wildlife. (YESH...Think Redang, Perhentian and Langkawi, the beautiful KLCC below and Rafflesia)

*Malays comprise just under half of the Malaysian population, Chinese constitute one-third, Indians one-tenth and indigenous tribes make up the rest. Although since 1971 Malays have benefited from positive discrimination in business, education and the civil service, ethnic Chinese continue to hold economic power and are the wealthiest community in Malaysia. (Need to say more? Haha.)

*The government is keen to insulate the largely-Muslim population from what it considers harmful foreign influences on TV. News is subject to censorship, entertainment shows and music videos regularly fall foul of the censors, and scenes featuring swearing and kissing are routinely removed from TV programmes and films. (Bah.)

Oh yes. I took the photo below with my digital camera. I'm damn proud of it. *grin*

BEAUTIFUL! Absolutely beautiful.

I *see* a glimmer of hope. Haha.

It's such a cold day but I'm sweating like a horse. My temperature is running high and I'm hoping *crossing my fingers* that I'm not infected with SARS. I'm too young to die. Heh.

She's not here...sigh.

I'm waiting for someone. Hurry up. Meanwhile...


-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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True or false?

And if you're interested, I present to you...my foot!



Heehee. Think I'm going overboard.

As you can see, I'm getting a bit excited with this new found activity. So here's Einstein.
Say hello Einstein!
And in any case you are wondering, it's a vibrator. Hur hur.

Anyway, there's more photos to come! And better quality ones too.

OK. Maybe the quality's a bit on the lousy side...

New photo...er...sort of. It was last year's Christmas gathering at Weelee's place. Nice eh.

Dumdeedum. 4th day of war and still counting. Sigh.

Something is obviously working against me. I am very upset. VERY UPSET. Chocolates won't make any difference this time. The only justification is war. War against MAS. Why does it refuse to process my form?? Clicking on the "submit" button so many times did not make any difference! All I get was a "refreshed" page. Grr...and what made me erupt this time was it simply just blanked out to this "can't find server" page. Sheesh.

Let me recapitulate.
My hopes of a one and only scholarship is clicked into oblivion. Boohoohoo. WHY CAN'T SITES WORK PROPERLY WHEN YOU WANT THEM TO?

Am I destined to be stuck in NUS??????????????????????????????????????????????????????
I'm sure it's a pleasant place but I want to go to UK. *whine whine whine*

Or is God as illusion? Just a thought/idea to keep myself sane. Argh. I need to check myself into Tanjung Rambutan soon.

Well, do forgive my exaggerated outburst. It's just so unfair.

My hopes of a one and only scholarship is clicked into oblivion. Boohoohoo. WHY CAN'T SITES WORK PROPERLY WHEN YOU WANT THEM TO?

Chocolates are wonderful therapeutic food. Yummy.

I noticed something about myself lately. I like to bulldoze my way through things. Yep. You heard that right. Bulldoze. Maybe many have already noticed this little (heh) tyrant in me, but it took me such a long time to see this. Well, this tyranny comes along with violent nature, un-lady-like (so said my pastor) and brashness. I loathe stuff like needlework and cooking and makeup and dressing up etc. (OK, so I am forced to cook. Else I'd die from hunger). And the irony is, I'm supposed to be a female. OK. I am a female. I simply cannot understand what has feminism got to do with those activities. Isn't it all in the mind? Can't I be a female just by having the 'female emotion' ? Hm. Anybody has a good explanation to this? Or do I need to find a guy that loves my un-feminine-ness? I'm confused. Not over my sexual identity, you idiots. I am a female. And I'm proud being one. I just can't find my niche among those typical females. Sigh. Maybe I'm having too much time in my hands again. Wooo.

Off to dancing lesson tomorrow! I can't wait. Though I really really sincerely wish that I can do ballet again...

And I've just re-posted that post. Haha. :)

Something interesting to ponder upon. Though I must emphasise (and insist) that the age/strength part does not apply to me. Happy reading!

Too old to make new friends?

SUNNY, one of my dearest friends at work, will leave the Straits Times next month for greener pastures.

He is not my first friend from the office to say goodbye.

Over the years, there have been a handful of colleagues who became friends.

In recent times, at least three others have also left.

When Sunny told me that he was leaving, I moaned:'With you gone, I will have hardly any friends left in the office!'

Which set me thinking:

At what point does an acquaintance or colleague become a friend?

And, to take a step back, what is this concept called 'friendship' anyway?

Indeed, what makes you click with one person and form a friendship with him, but not some other?

If a friend is defined as someone I feel completely comfortable calling up at 3 am to bail me out of trouble - and Sunny will do so - then, alas, I don't have that many friends.

Other than family members, I can count on just one female friend and three, at best four, male friends.

But then, maybe that's plenty.

As someone once said, one friend in a lifetime is much, two are many, three are hardly possible.

FRIENDSHIPS are different from relationships - and thank goodness for that.

You can be great chums with your partner, of course,but a relationship is so much more complex.

It is not only about that enrapturing feeling called love, but - if you are unlucky - also a host of murky emotions like jealousy, resentment, anger, pain and despair.

Friendship is simpler and fills you, mostly, with harmless Type B emotions - kindliness, fondness, warmth and cordiality.

With a lover, you make demands and have expectations. ( I fully disagree)

But with a friend, you're cool.

You don't really owe him anything, or have to explain much, because, ultimately, you demand nothing more from each other than pleasant company and an occasional listening ear.

Love, I read somewhere, is blind, but friendship closes its eyes. ( And I read somewhere that something else keeps love's eyes open. Heh)
How true.

THE older I get, the more I value friends.

Yet, ironically, I find that it is now not only harder for me to maintain old friendships, but also to form new ones.

When I was in school, friendships came naturally.

My friends and I moved in a pack - we ate, studied,gossiped and partied together.

We exchanged secrets and gifts, sent cards and gave treats.

Our friendships were firm, and sweet.

Coming from an all-girls school, I didn't get to make male friends until I was in junior college.

Initial shyness aside, I found that it was possible to have a platonic relationship with a guy, and that they made equally good friends.

By the time I went to university, I was already attached, and had little time to make new friends, male or female.

Then came working life.

Through sheer proximity and the amount of time spent together, it was inevitable that some colleagues became more than co workers.

What is it that allows you to become friends with some people, and not others?

Shared experience is one requisite, and the sharper it is, the better.

For Sunny and I, it was our years spent pounding the same beat, politics.

That X factor called 'chemistry' is another, and I suppose this explains how you can be firm friends with people who are very different from you.

THE saddest thing about friendship is that it can die.

It doesn't come with a lifelong guarantee.

Distance is one killer. ( This is one danger in realtionships too!)

Unless you are diligent in keeping in touch with a friend, being far away can drive a wedge in your relationship.

Changes in circumstance is another.

It has been said that a friend in power is a friend lost, and I have found this to be true.

When a friend moves up in life, he will become too busy for you, while you don't want to risk rejection by trying to keep in contact with him.

Marriages have also caused friendships to fade as your spouse might not take to your friends.

Then there are friendships that die because they have simply run their course.

I had a close female friend whom I had known since we were both 17.

About four years back, after 16 years of keeping in touch through the mail, long hours on the phone and giggly lunches, our friendship died.

Just like that.

There was no quarrel, no disagreement, no underlying unhappiness or animosity or hurts.

The plug was just pulled.

The last time we saw each other was at lunch - in fact, it was to celebrate her birthday.

We were our usual loud selves.

After the meal, we gave our usual hug, said our usual cheery goodbyes and made our usual promise to meet again.

We didn't call each other for weeks (which was normal, as we were both busy), then months (which began to feel a bit strange, but nothing to be alarmed about), then, yes, years (by then, it was too late to resuscitate the friendship).

We did talk once, last year, when my father died and she called.

I was grateful to hear from her and I know it took a lot for her to pick up the phone after so many years.

I wish nothing but the best for her, and am always glad to hear from mutual friends that she is well.

Yet, I know that if we were to bump into each other today, it would feel awkward.

IF I value friendship so much, why don't I just go forth and make more friends?

It is easier said than done.

People my age and older are busy with careers and family.

I have fewer things in common with those younger.

But the fault is mine.

At my age, I lack the energy and enthusiasm.

Starting and maintaining a friendship might be far less arduous than a relationship, but it still requires effort.

Do I have the strength for that on top of the other demands in my life?

So, next month, I say goodbye to Sunny and I am left with one friend fewer at work.

British writer Vi! rginia Woolf once said: 'I have lost friends, some by death - others by sheer inability to
cross the street.'

Should I spot Sunny - and my few remaining friends -on the street, I trust I can muster the energy to walkup to them and say 'hi'.

For, really, that is all it takes to keep a friendship alive.

* * *
To those friendships I've murdered, or is dying, I think I'm becoming immune to it. Probably because of the numbers and more likely out of my laziness. But certain things require effort and this is definitely one of them.

Decided to delete that post. did something weird to the whole page. Anyway, have a good life everybody.

Has anybody heard of such things?

These websites are only accessible during Malaysian offcie hours.

Bullshit.

OK. I have 4As and B3. Wish I'd done Chem S paper, but never mind.

Off to work now. And it's my last day tomorrow! YAY.

$#@%^^&%*&^%$#.

STUPID NUS SYSTEM. So rigid and inflexible. So Singaporean. Hmmmphf.

Want to blog, but dunno what to say. Coz it'll be kinda inappropriate at this time...

Forgive my lousy English. Heh.

I want to get what I expected for As. And I'm still trying to make myself believe that I've been out of school for 3 months! this is getting nowhere. Bye.

*shudder*

THIS is freaky.

The GCE A-Level Results will be released on Thursday, 6 March 2003 at 1400hrs.
Thank you for your patience.

Argh. God help me...