Thinking...

I really should bugger off and jump into the shower. Am still thinking of the night that we have spent so much time preparing for. I tell you, my committee is SUPERB. They have so much of the hard work and I am really thankful for them. Otherwise I'll be bald by now. Haha. And I really really love them all. Thank you my dear committee members, you are the best. Without you, the choir cannot move smoothly.

As I sit here and reminisce the last few hours, I could only recall the hurrying around, giving loads of instruction, then the off-pitch notes (haha!), the applause and so on. But what is imprinted deeply in my mind is the praise I got from the ex-SC, the kiss I received from the MC and the words Nelson said to me. Perhaps I'm not a failure after all. Perhaps the concert is not a phenomenal success but it is something I am contented with. It is a good ending to my "career". And this is the hard work of everybody.

I am assured of my position now. I guess I am a more confident person now. And this, I must attribute it to all my choir members.

Thank you for the beautiful memories.

Life at its hardest

I think I owe quite a bit to this blog of mine. Have been with me for almost 5 years and lately I have not been concientious in updating. And even when I do, I don't do wholeheartedly.

Anyway, tomorrow's the BIG day. It's like the climax of my "presidency" and it will show whether the leadership of the choir is good. I'm less worried than 2 nights ago but I'm keeping my fingers crossed that nothing bad will happen. I hope that we will make magic and charm the hell out of people. Haha! But of course, this is not solely for personal achievement and gratification only, it also reflects on the people in the choir as well. (Btw, that statement wasn't an afterthought, even though it sounds like it)

Have been visiting a few blogs lately. Have been seeing many blogs with people in LDR. I wonder how they are doing. I wonder whether they go through the same longing as I do. Heh. Kay-pohing around again. Haha.

Well, I shall attempt to do a little studying and go to bed early tonight. Ack. Which is in like, 40 mins. Let's see how much I can cover. Hur hur.

Random updates

Performance on 18 Feb received rave comments. And most of all, the choir was well-spoken of. But then, this major performance has sucked the life out of us. Sigh.

And now, all I wish for is my friends to be in Singapore. At least I know they will support me fully in this coming concert. People like Kenny, Fendy, LY, YM, Nad, Rach, WL, Lyd, Yach, Martin, Helen etc will make their time for me and come for the concert...Now the problem is, either I have no friends whatsoever in this tinylittleisland, or just that people I become "friends" with are just fair-weather friends. They talk so much about wanting to come for my concert but when the actual date arrives, they run away, citing reasons like midterm tests, visiting friends etc, basically a whole plethora of excuses. And it's not like I did not inform them earlier. Tsk.

Bah. I have no time for these. I will work on what I can do.

One concert down, another one to go!

I really don't feel like a student. I seem to have evolved to a full-time performer and just a part-time student. Argh. I cannot condone mediocrity! Something needs to be done, and should be done fast once these 2 weeks are over.

But then again, thinking of the potential matters that I have to settle and tie up before I hand over, maybe I won't get to really focus on my studies after all...but I shall not let that happen. Everything must be done and settled one week after concert! Yes, this is what I expect of myself. This is undue stress but my results cannot be hanging over the fence for too long. I am firstly a student, then the head of the choir. My future would be what I am studying for now, and not what I am managing. As much as I want to quit and divert my attention to something that is my passion and interest, financial difficulties do not allow. And time will not allow either. I am no longer young (those who are itching to tease me on this, I think you better just shut up) and I want to do so many things before I hit a particular age. All I want is more time.

I'm kinda tired, but there's still things for me to do. Homeworks, lab reports, letters to read through, things to vet, concert planning etcetc. The list just goes on.

Mommy's birthday was yesterday. Didn't even have opportunity to give her a call due to my extremely busy schedule. Just realised that my parents are getting older and they are really letting me go. They no longer harp on my decisions but just to offer an occasional insult/advice. :P In fact, they are so confident of me that they support all the things I do. As long as I don't go off tangent like quitting uni and decide to work as salesgirl instead. But they know I will not do such things. They know my expectations for myself surpasses their expectations for me.

Aiks. Post getting too personal. Anyway, wish me luck for the coming week. Midterm "break", here I come.

A Friend's Thoughts

Courtesy of GreenLamb:
Instead of having flowers, I would rather you show little bits of love everyday. That, is so much harder to do, especially when you're down, whether or not you go that extra mile for your loved one [w]ithout being told.

Thanks man.

And thanks to all my friends out there in this huge globe, for your friendship and love. Must still remember that February 14 is Friendship Day too! Heh.

Busybusybusybusybusy week ahead

Am going to spend 4 out of my 5 weekdays singing and rehearsing all night! Woohoo~ Way to go, me! And that will be the norm for the next 2 weeks. Woohoo~ Go me, again!

Anyway, I really should stop blogging and go read up on my pracs. No time to lose. Yepyep.

See you all when I emerge alive from these burdensome practices.

*faint*

Annoyed

I don't mean to be bitter, but I really cannot stand Valentine's Day. Not when my sweetie is not around. URGH. Bad mood alert tomorrow.

Anyway, I want these things.
1. New wallet with many card compartments
2. A bracelet
3. An anklet
4. YOU

I have totally the same opinion as her

From Xiaxue, I found this: "I despise girls who have no character and backbones of their own (aka "shu nu"), and I despise stupid guys who like these girls even more." And I must reiterate, I have the same opinion as her. Teehee.

The BIG news around lately

Visit here to read more. I really admire that guy's guts though.

It's time for him to just step down and be a normal citizen for a change lah. Otherwise I bet he must be rolling around in his grave when he...oh wait, he will be cremated in true Singaporean style. Ah well. Hearing his thunderous voice booming across the sky? Teeheehee.